Grateful

Dear Two,

Every time I see you I think it can’t get any better, yet the next time it does.

I feel so comfortable around you, like we’ve known each other for ages.

I’m so glad I decided to be brave and go on a date with you.

I almost didn’t, have I told you that?

I didn’t think we were going to align, that we were moving at different paces.

Turned out that we could meet in the middle.

It was the best surprise.

Last week I visited, and you had just gotten back from a run when I arrived.

Shirtless and drenched in sweat, you were so beautiful.

I wanted my hands slipping all over you.

I have to shower! You protested.

I told you to just wait a moment because it was so hot.

We kissed and I felt your wet skin.

You tasted so salty and delicious, like when I’m surfing and lick my lips and taste the ocean.

After you showered you made us amazing salads for dinner, and then we took a walk.

All through your sweet city neighborhood.

There was a pond nearby you wanted to show me, and we walked through the park.

When we walk places you have a little ocd habit of needing to walk in the outside of me.

It’s so heartwarming and protective and endearing.

That night you had your arm around me, gently holding the small of my back as we strolled.

It was such a small but sweet gesture of the intimacy I feel constantly growing between us.

In contrast to One, you seem to really like communicating between our visits.

Sending me little notes and check ins if it’s been a few days since we connected.

I love that you send me audios too, your voice is always so sweet and genuine.

And the lovemaking…

It’s so expansive and organic and sensual.

I lose track of how many times we have it each overnight, but it’s a lot.

It always feels like you can’t get enough of me, and it’s the best feeling.

I love that you’re uncircumcised.

It’s new for me, and so exciting and sexy.

Everything about you feels new and different, yet at the same time you feel as safe as my childhood home.

I love you, deeply and truly.

I think you know.

And although I don’t think you’re ready for me to say it aloud, you seem to be comfortable and not freaked out by it.

I’m so grateful for that.

Thank you, love.

I’m learning so much from our time together.

You’re growing me, exponentially.

Since you’ve entered my life I feel braver, more confident, more comfortable in this new skin I now inhabit.

And I have the feeling we’re just getting started.

I can’t wait to see all the things you’ve yet to teach me about myself.

I drew your portrait yesterday.

Making portraits of people I love helps me process my feelings about them.

It’s an outward expression of my inner devotion and adoration.

It means you’re in, babe.

You’ve made a home inside my heart, and I’m so happy to have you there.

You feel so right, so safe, so real.

So thank you.

For holding all of me, and not telling me I’m too much.

I’m so grateful.